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2016 has brought many changes to my life.  Changes that I wasn’t really expecting.  Honestly, I thought 2016 was going to look a lot like 2015.  You know, work, eat, sleep, and do it all over again tomorrow.  Well, that’s not the way things are happening this year!

First, my employers made a decision about where they wanted to move the office and when it was going to happen!  It took the first 4 months of 2016 to get all the details lined out and the new office constructed to their liking, but we have finally moved in!  Is this a positive move?  Absolutely!  It means that I am the Office Manager for a company this is actively growing!  And our office is big enough to qualify, at least in my world, as an exercise opportunity!  We are located on the second floor of a building and spans one city block.  So walking to the break room and back to my office to get a cup of coffee is increasing my exercise goals!  Yippee!

Another positive thing about the move is that I no longer have my back to the main entrance of the office!  I’m actually clear at the other end of the building, can’t even see the door from my desk, but I’m still the one who has to answer the doorbell when people come to visit!  Ah well, another plus for the exercise!

The second big change happened to my son.  He had been living with his girlfriend of over 5 years when their relationship hit the rocks.  My son went into a deep depression while his girlfriend packed all their things and left.  She at least gave me all of his things since he was in the hospital so he didn’t lose everything.  He just lost her.  She had been is anchor, his rock, and his only support system.  And now she was done.  After a few weeks in the mental health system, he decided to move out of state to live with a friend who has suffered many of the same issues he’s had.  So far, living in another state, away from all the memories of life here seems to be working for him.  At least, I hope it is!  As his mom, I just want him to be happy, safe and loved.

My third big change concerns my daughter.  She is the baby of my family but she is no longer a baby!  She has a partner and two kids of her own!  And the good news is that she and her family have moved to a small town that is within 30 minutes of me!  They used to be about 3 1/2 hours away!  Of course, my husband and I had a LOT to do with helping them get moved!  But that’s beside the point.  The point is, my baby had moved back home and is now close enough for me to have the opportunity to get to know at least two of my grand children!  change wordle

And it’s not quite the end of May yet.  I have no idea what other changes the universe may have in store for me this year.  But I hope it’s not too many more!  I like my routine.  It’s safe!

There is another change occurring.  This one is about me.  Me and getting older.  When I was younger, I was very skinny.  It was hard for me to put on enough weight to keep me warm.  My doctor once told me, when I complained about my tail bone hurting whenever I sit for any length of time, to eat more ice-cream and fatty foods.  He said I needed to gain weight.  So I did.  I LOVE ice-cream and fatty foods!  I love food!  But I still couldn’t gain the weight.  Then I turned 40.  Suddenly my clothes started getting too tight and it was getting harder to breathe.  I went from 120 lbs up to 135 lbs.  Wow!  I was actually filling out in all the right places!  Finally I felt like a girl complete with curves!  (My husband however thought I was getting fat.  He didn’t like the changes.)

When I was 45 I quit smoking.  You know what happens when you quit smoking?  You find things to put in your mouth that aren’t cigarettes.  Like cookies, and other “bad for you” snacks!  I gained more weight.  Then we moved to Colorado and I got homesick.  So homesick I ended up really depressed.  I put on more weight.  And other health issues started appearing on a regular basis too.

Now, I am 51.  I weigh 170 to 175 lbs.  I can’t seem to find clothes that not only fit comfortably but also look good on me.  And my overall health?  Sucks!  That’s right!  It sucks!  For the past several years, I have converted most of my diet to organic.  I am of the opinion that our foods are being manufactured by huge corporations that have no moral obligation to do what’s right.  The ingredients being used for the processed boxed and canned foods that we think are safe, have never been tested or approved by the FDA!  All the mystery illnesses and chronic illnesses like cancer and diabetes are coming from our foods and our environment!

When I was 26 and raising my three kids, I never really thought about what’s in our food.  My thought was that it couldn’t be sold on the grocery store shelf unless it was good for us!  Boy was I wrong!  And now, 25 years later after eating all those chemically altered foods, I am struggling to just feel good.  And my husband is struggling with his own version of depression.

When will we wake up and take back our lives, our health, and our country?  How did we let the corporations take over?  When did we stop buying foods that are “in season” and start forcing plants to produce when its not a natural time for them to produce?  When did we stop preparing our own foods for winter storage?

Things to ponder as we move forward in 2016.  I am hoping with the added exercise from the new office, continuing to eat as organic as possible, and having opportunities to spend time with my family, will help me to add more peace and happiness to my life.  My goal is to be happy and satisfied no matter where I am, what I’m doing, or who I’m with.  Baby steps will get me there.

Thanks for listening!waynedyer384143 Changes

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