If anyone ever tells you that changing careers is easy, they aren’t telling you the whole story!
As many of you already know, up until recently I worked as an accountant for many, many, years. And while I’m very good at keeping books, I’m also very bored with the career. I needed to make a change to something more challenging and meaningful.
The problem with changing careers is the waiting for the new career to make enough money to actually do you some good. I have been working on this site since August. I know, not enough time to actually expect anything to come from it. But it would be nice if things could surprise me. Show me that I’m really on the right track! Pennies here and there that I can’t have until I’ve earned lots more pennies is not going to cut it. I need to make enough to buy groceries. Pay for my health insurance. And of course all those other mundane things we have to include in our daily lives.
Whatever happened to living your dream because it’s what makes your soul happy? I find it discouraging that I have to turn this project of sharing my knowledge into something financial simply because I still need to eat. The Universe promises to provide abundance once you start following your passions! I have a hard time defining “abundance” unless it’s in monetary form. These are the things that get in the way of living a truly spiritual life.
I don’t know about you, but I have read lots of books about becoming “one with the Universe” and “bring Jesus into your heart!” and all the other sound-bites one hears at various seminars. What does it really mean? How does a person “Live in victory every day!” unless someone else is living in loss at the same time? There has to be balance in the universe and in our lives. All these people who preach that we can all have everything we want in exchange for our obedience and our silence when we see that what we have is at the expense of others.
Out in my gardens I get to see new life unfold. Watch that life mature, bear fruit, and then die. There is a simplicity and fairness about the whole live and death thing. The beauty that the plants share with us during that life-span can be breath taking! How do we incorporate that simplicity and beauty into our petty little human lives? How do we live our dreams, being true to ourselves, and still survive in a world that is dominated by inequality, greed, despair, and fear?
Am I on the right path now, or was I on the right path before? How am I supposed to know when the outcome is so hard to define?
Whatever the answers are, all I can do is be who I am. Continue to share what I know for those that want my knowledge. And somehow find a way to support myself while staying true to myself and my spiritual path.
I hope that by sharing my feelings as I go along on this journey, I can help others who may be going through similar hurdles.